In this post, I want to discuss Christianity and will be speaking within the context of that religion and not Islam, Judaism or religions in general because I was at one time, a Christian. A brazenly liberal one, but a self-identified Christian nonetheless. As for those who wish to split hairs and attempt to counter with a logical fallacy by stating that, “You never were a real Christian”(with or without several exclamation points); I would say, don’t bother.
Having been an ex-Christian for quite some time now, I was thinking back and trying to identify the one deformity of my discarded faith that had been one thing in particular that I could never have reconciled with my faith. Now, leaving aside the numberless contradictions, incoherence’s, immoral actions, demented pronouncements, lies, stupidities, and genocidal blood lust that gleefully drips from nearly every page along with the hysterically happy perpetrators; one thing always stuck with me as something that to be true, would be the ultimate deal breaker.
I’ve heard a some atheists say, “I wish I could believe” or that they wished it to be true. I am not one of those who can now look to Christianity and claim with a straight face, that I desired any of it to be true. However, leaving aside the above mentioned offenses, and further assuming that, I did desire it to be, in some way true; I would need plausible explanation, of titanic proportions, detailing the near impossible: The explanation of readiness for Abraham to murder his own son in cold blood and a further detailed explanation, also with the earnest requirement for it to be plausible, that God, should at any time have even asked Abraham for this absurdity.
Surveying the history of this absurd cult, it may be fruitless to ask for consistency and lucidity but it is my right if not responsibility to ask for them, since the believers demand on authority from the almighty himself and under threat of excruciating torment for all of eternity that I believe, and celebrate this heinous atrocity.
The first problem arising from this nonsensical tale of parenting gone awry, that would disgrace even a Jerry Springer episode, is to point out that the believers themselves, if not God himself, claims that he or Yahweh is omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent. I should not need to, but for the sake of some readers, I will necessarily have to expound. If god possesses these qualities of omniscience and omnipotence, then he, by definition, would already know the outcome since these qualities nullify freewill and bolt the universe into a linear line of past, present and future. All of which is known by god. So, the outcome being already known to the supreme leader, only raises the question, of what use is the test then? Since it’s obviously not a test. “He’s testing his faith and devotion” the believers will no doubt say. But this, as I’ve pointed out, is not an answer since there’s no real test going on. No, there must be another answer. I myself am left with only two possible explanations. This could be a case of sheer malevolence, as in the haphazard case of the luckless Job who found himself in the cross hairs on one of God’s better days or, that, whatever it is that the Christian’s beloved murderous hero is speaking to, it isn’t god. At this point, we’re left with those two possible explanations for this bit of raving lunacy. Malevolent cruelty on the part of Yahweh or, mental disorder on the part of Abraham. In either case, why should this be a prophet or deity that one should even wish to emulate. It’s absurd and viscous to the highest possible degree. If anyone has come up with a better explanation, please let me know.
So to this I say, this is my deal breaker. I found it bizarre as a child, cruel when I was a teenager and after becoming a father, revolting to the point of causing me nausea and raging in a way I never thought possible. This isn’t the worst offense to human dignity among the many wicked stories contained in the bible but for me it encapsulates the point of inhumane cruelty in such a manner that no further investigation into the stories should even be necessary.